June 30

I woke up and it was a good day. Dog woke me up a little early, but that is fine. I didn't look like the undead when I did the first mirror check, either. That's always good.  There was even coffee brewed, waiting for me in the kitchen. Got to see Dad and my brother hobble around all tired, which just makes me smile.  They look like penguins until they are awake.

The morning stayed in that good "flow" until I hit the road.
  On the road this morning I felt fearful.  It always feels like I'm jumping into a pool of sharks when I seat myself into the driver's seat of a car.  (Phobia? Not quite.) Once I'm driving I'm usually fine, but initially, my heart races. Today, though, I got more unnerved than is typical. I worriedly wondered if I was messing up  when a semi wouldn't get off my bumper. It rattled me a lot!!

Small, huh? But I arrived home after driving and felt pretty worthless.  I probably was a stupid driver, I thought. What if I had hurt someone?  I really don't want to drive to work today!

That went on for probably a couple minutes before I remembered- 

Feelings aren't truth.

I felt fearful and like a mess-up.  But look at what Paul says in Philippians 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."   Paul had confidence in God.

Putting your confidence in something is really a pretty big deal.  A dancer puts her confidence in her dance partner that, when she starts to gracefully (and rapidly) fall, he will catch her (and make the crowd roar).  A NASCAR driver puts his confidence in his team that made the car race ready... that he will have good steering, that the tires have the right amount of air, that the brakes are in order (that he is Safe!)  A lawyer puts confidence in his secretary that she is handling his or her business and customers well.  A patient puts confidene in their nurse that this needle really does need to go in their arm, or that it really is necessary to swallow that pink pill.   That confidence is faith.  It is accepting something as true.


Though I FEEL nervous...

...TRUTH is, I'm driving. And apparently I can do all things through Christ.  Jesus helped Paul preach, teach, heal, serve, travel. 

Jesus can help a skittish young woman drive.

Today, I'm thankful for truth and that I can keep my eyes and heart on it instead of feelings.

(PS:  Later found out I did nothing wrong while driving!!! :) )